Wanna know how I got these scars?

Di sekolah lagi ada pelatihan sensitivitas gender yang membosankan. Gue gak tau kenapa kalo sekolah ngadain pelatihan selalu membosankan. Gue sampe speechless. Bukan karena bingung, tapi emang engga menarik untuk ditanyain.

Entah materinya gak penting, atau metodenya gak variatif, atau emang gurunya konservatif. Gue sih udah berusaha memperhatikan dengan baik yaaa...tapi ga tau lah, ngantuk ya ngantuk...

But we do talk about STEREOTYPES. I hate stereotypes. They won't vanish until I die, I predict. Orang yang pernah jadi maling sekali, sampe akhir juga bakal diteriakin maling.

Padahal dulu gue pernah denger khotbah pastur di gereja kalo maling engga akan selamanya jadi maling.

Itu salah satu khotbah yang menyentuh hati gue. Dan hati gue pecah berkeping-keping (ceileeee...lebay abis) menyadari bahwa sedikit sekali orang yang gue kenal dan mendengar khotbah tersebut. Kalo denger pun belom tentu mereka nyadar 'maling' itu adalah gue.

Yes, Pastur! BETUL SEKALI!

Gue dulu sombong, tapi sekarang gue sudah berusaha supaya engga sombong lagi dan emang udah berkurang laaah...jadi kenapa sih, ayo sini temenan sama gue! Senyumin gue balik donk kalo gue senyumin elo! Kalo gue ajak ngomong gue diperhatiin donk!

People make mistakes, semua orang pernah donk denger kata-kata itu?



Now you know how I got these scars.

you're nothing to me. I'm freaker.

I am wondering.

Yeah, with these never-ending assignment, tons of exams, three books to read, four movies to watch, three huge torrents to download, and lots of anything else, I still have time to wonder.

How do people look at me?

How do I look?

What is wrong with me?

And what is right about me?

I'm trying to love myself. Still trying.

But I'm freaker than her, than anyone else. Of course nothing compare to The Joker, but I know I'm different. Not to say that I'm the only one that differs, but in my society, I am some more. More difficult to handle, more individual, more whatsoever.

Or am I just too sensitive?

Actually there's no 'freaker' word in dictionary.

I'm way too serious, ain't I?

3:10 to Yuma (2007): Time Waits For One Man

Genre: Drama, Western, Remake

Release Date: September 7th, 2007
MPAA Rating: R for violence and some language
Director: James Mangold
Starring: Russell Crowe, Christian Bale, Peter Fonda, Gretchen Mol, Ben Foster

I'm not a fan of cowboy movies (actually I don't know what exactly the kind of movie I like).
I'm not an expert movie-reviewer too. Even I'm still too far from a newbie.
But this is one of my favourite movies, so I'll try.

This is a remake of 1957 movie, when it was still black and white. Glenn Ford played Ben Wade, Van Heflin was Dan Evans.

In this movie, a rancher, Dan Evans (Christian Bale) took a 200-dollars-task to escort a bandit, Ben Wade (Russell Crowe) from Bisbee to Yuma by train. In Yuma, this dangerous man would be taken to the court and might be hanged to death.

Dan Evans was a poor rancher. He lost a leg in the Civil War. He badly needed that money to make a better living. Besides, he have to save his face in front of his wife, Alice (Gretchen Mol) and his oldest son, William (Logan Lerman) because often William didn't believe his dad to run the family and so did Alice.

Of course many hazardous events happened. A group of Indians living in the middle of the way there and the threatening gang of Ben Wade, especially Charlie Prince (Ben Foster) was chasing them behind. One by one the party lost its member and only Dan Evans left. The unbelievable confessions between Wade and Evans made everything twisted.

I never watched the original one but Russell Crowe did a good job here. His cruelty was bold, and his words that consists of proverbs of the Bible made his character even interesting. Christian Bale as my favourite actor played a family man once again and I LOVE IT. I love his expressions as a dad. Maybe it looked quite odd when a one-legged man run like a usual healthy adult. Maybe he didn't show the abilities a real hawk-eyed shooter has like Crowe did. But he played well to compeer such a Academy Award winner like Crowe.

Logan Lerman's character was interesting too. Maybe William was very annoying at the first time, but his bravery 'saves his face'. As a rebellious and inexperienced teenager, he didn't trouble the party. I like Lerman's job too.

If you like western movies, such as Unforgiven (1992), watch it. I gave quite-subjective eight point five stars out of ten for this movie. It's worth to watch.

SPOILER ALERT

I hate it when I saw Dan Evans died. T_T But finally there, William could convince himself that his dad was a responsible man. He's a man of his word.

Thanks to the Internet Movie Database for the technical details and the important quotes I've forgot.

I'm not an agent of chaos, so I work my live in well.

I'M BACK FROM LIVE IN!

It's good to see my mom's car (not being so like a townie, but I like the way it vrooms, the way it moves, the way it comes to me...then I sat inside, it's soooo homey), it's good to see the house the way it stands and everyone inside it, it's good to see the bed, it's good to see everything's still on its place.

It's good too, not to bring along the thought that I'm in Gotham Police's wanted list ^^

But it's not good to see my pencil case is not in its place. My mom set a fire in my room (I mean, clean those piles of junk), so I can't find it till now.

By the way, I accidentally brought the thought that I may be a psycho like Patrick Bateman. And it's quite disappointing.

I was doing my fasting, when I had such a dream.

Ha. Not important. Dreams aren't (always) telling prophecy, right? Especially, I'm no clairvoyant.

Iiiih koneksinya jelek banget sih. Padahal gue masih mau nulis banyak nih.

Yah taulah gimana...

Gue di Desa Kembang, Gunung Kidul. Di rumah seorang ibu bernama Ibu Gianti dan seorang bapak bernama Bapak Sumedi. Pekerjaan petani. Yeaaa pokoknya gitu daaah. Gue males banget nyeritain lagi soalnya semangat bercerita gue udah terserap habis di sekolah tadi. BORED.

Kamar mandi ada. Gue mandi bersih, dua kali sehari.
Makanan banyak. Gue engga jadi kurus kok. Emang gue ikut puasa gara-gara ibu angkat gue itu muslim, tapi gue engga turun satu gram pun kok. Maaph yeh.
Tempat tidur kapuk. Gue tetep cukup tidur kok. Sangat berkelebihan bahkan.

Ya gitu deh. Yang kagak ada cuman komputer ama internet broadband. Itu yang bikin pikiran gue rada busuk di sana. Gak ada kerjaan. Cuman nulis-nulis beberapa ide cerita, karakter, dll yang tiba-tiba muncul di kepala pas daydreaming.

Oh iya. Yang paling ahoy tuh bisnya. Bis berkapasitas 40-50 orang berkecepatan setara sedan di jalan-jalan kecil berkelok di Jawa. Serasa jet coaster.

Pulang ke rumah. Ngobrol. Meluk adek kesayangan sampe gepeng. Duduk-duduk. Masak aer. Mandi aer agak hangat karena gue tinggalin tuh ember luber. Huu. Buang-buang aer aja. Sarapan. Nyari-nyari map ijo tempat gue sembunyiin DVD. Ngerapiin DVD. Bikin refleksi di komputer karena kotak pensil gue ilang. Diprint di lembar belakang pertanyaan refleksi. NONTON 3:10 to YUMA sampe nyokap pulang.

DORR.

Nanti dah kalo gue mood untuk nyeritain 'nilai-nilai yang gue dapet dari live-in' ato nyeritain bagaimana sapi menikah. Sekarang gue mau bikin review 3:10 to Yuma dulu.